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Supporting feminist, women’s rights and gender justice movements to thrive, to be a driving force in challenging systems of oppression, and to co-create feminist realities.
Building Feminist Economies is about creating a world with clean air to breath and water to drink, with meaningful labour and care for ourselves and our communities, where we can all enjoy our economic, sexual and political autonomy.
In the world we live in today, the economy continues to rely on women’s unpaid and undervalued care work for the profit of others. The pursuit of “growth” only expands extractivism - a model of development based on massive extraction and exploitation of natural resources that keeps destroying people and planet while concentrating wealth in the hands of global elites. Meanwhile, access to healthcare, education, a decent wage and social security is becoming a privilege to few. This economic model sits upon white supremacy, colonialism and patriarchy.
Adopting solely a “women’s economic empowerment approach” is merely to integrate women deeper into this system. It may be a temporary means of survival. We need to plant the seeds to make another world possible while we tear down the walls of the existing one.
We believe in the ability of feminist movements to work for change with broad alliances across social movements. By amplifying feminist proposals and visions, we aim to build new paradigms of just economies.
Our approach must be interconnected and intersectional, because sexual and bodily autonomy will not be possible until each and every one of us enjoys economic rights and independence. We aim to work with those who resist and counter the global rise of the conservative right and religious fundamentalisms as no just economy is possible until we shake the foundations of the current system.
Our Actions
Our work challenges the system from within and exposes its fundamental injustices:
Advance feminist agendas: We counter corporate power and impunity for human rights abuses by working with allies to ensure that we put forward feminist, women’s rights and gender justice perspectives in policy spaces. For example, learn more about our work on the future international legally binding instrument on “transnational corporations and other business enterprises with respect to human rights” at the United Nations Human Rights Council.
Mobilize solidarity actions: We work to strengthen the links between feminist and tax justice movements, including reclaiming the public resources lost through illicit financial flows (IFFs) to ensure social and gender justice.
Build knowledge: We provide women human rights defenders (WHRDs) with strategic information vital to challenge corporate power and extractivism. We will contribute to build the knowledge about local and global financing and investment mechanisms fuelling extractivism.
Create and amplify alternatives: We engage and mobilize our members and movements in visioning feminist economies and sharing feminist knowledges, practices and agendas for economic justice.
“The corporate revolution will collapse if we refuse to buy what they are selling – their ideas, their version of history, their wars, their weapons, their notion of inevitability. Another world is not only possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing”.
Arundhati Roy, War Talk
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6. Conduct desk research
Desk research can be done throughout your research. It can assist you with framing, help you to choose survey questions and provide insights to your results.
Conducting desk research throughout your research process can assist you with framing, help you to choose survey questions and provide contextual clarity or interesting insights to your survey results, such as comparing similarities and differences between your survey results and information produced by civil society and donors.
Perhaps you notice trends in your survey data and want to understand them.
For example, your survey data may reveal that organization budgets are shrinking, but it cannot tell you why this is happening. Reviewing publications can give you context on potential reasons behind such trends.
Desk research also ensures you are building your research on the existing knowledge regarding your topic, confirming the validity and relevance of your findings.
They may be complimentary or contradictory to existing knowledge, but they must speak to existing data on the topic.
To ensure comprehensive research of the entire funding landscape related to your topic, look at a diverse set of funding sectors.
You can consider:
Women’s Funds
Private and Public Foundations
International Non-Governmental Organizations (INGOs)
Bilateral and Multilateral Agencies
Private Sector Actors
Individual Philanthropists
Crowdfunders
Include any other relevant sectors to this research.
For example, you may decide that it is also important to research local non-governmental organizations (NGOs).
Potential sources for desk research (non-exhaustive)
1. Donors’ websites and annual reports
These are direct sources of information about what funders are actually doing and generally contain information on policies and budgets. Researching this before interviewing donors can result in more focused questions and a stronger interview.
From Peacebuild to the Canadian Feminist Alliance for International Action, Amnesty International, and the Canadian Centre for Policy Alternatives (CCPA), Kate had a lifelong passion for women’s rights and gender equality and dedicated her career to fighting inequality and making the world a more compassionate place.
Kate was a member of the Coordinating Committee of Social Watch and a contributor to the Canadian National Social Watch reports. As a Senior Researcher at the CCPA, Kate received national acclaim for researching, writing, and producing the annual “The Best and Worst Places to be a Woman in Canada” report.
Kate died peacefully surrounded by her family, following a three-year battle with colon cancer. She is described by loved ones as a “Funny, Fearless, Unapologetically Feminist.”
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All our change processes rely on the relationships we build at spaces like the AWID Forums where you dance together, your humour comes through, your real self, you tell stories. That is what makes the difference. - Nicky Mcintyre, USA
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Amal was a prominent politician and parliamentarian in Libya. She was a faculty member at Benghazi University from 1995 until her death in 2017.
Amal was a civil society activist and a member of various social and political initiatives. She assisted the families of martyrs and the disappeared, and was a founding member of a youth initiative called ‘’Youth of Benghazi Libya”. In the 2014 parliamentary elections, Amal was elected to the House of Representatives with more than 14,000 votes (the highest number of votes anyone received in the 2014 elections).
Amal will remain in the memories of many as a woman politician working to ensure a better future in one the most difficult and conflict-ridden contexts in the region.
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We know that first time travel can be exciting but also stressful. In recognition of the many challenges involved, we will be providing more information and details about how to get to Bangkok when Registration opens early next year.
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Andaiye in Swahili means ‘a daughter comes home’. Born Sandra Williams on 11 September 1942 in Georgetown, Guyana, she changed her name to ‘Andaiye’ in 1970 as the Black Power movements swept her country and the wider Caribbean region.
Andaiye was seen as a transformative figure on the frontlines of the struggles for liberation and freedom. She was an early member and active in the leadership of the Working People’s Alliance (WPA), a socialist party in Guyana which fought against authoritarian rule and continued throughout her life to focus on justice for the working-class and rural women’s rights and on bridging ethnic barriers between Indo and Afro-Guyanese women.
Andaiye was a founding member of Red Thread Women, an organization that advocated for women’s care work to be fairly remunerated, worked at the University of the West Indies and with CARICOM. Never afraid to challenge governments, she pointed out gender imbalances in state boards, laws that discriminated against sex workers, called for abortion rights in Jamaica and spoke out against trade agreements such as the Caribbean Single Market and Economy (CSME) that allowed for the free movement of women domestic migrant workers but did not give their children the same rights.
Andaiye published several scholarly essays, wrote newspaper columns and also edited the last books of Walter Rodney, the Guyanese political activist and fellow WPA leader, who was assassinated in 1980. A cancer survivor, Andaiye was one of the founders of the Guyana Cancer Society and the Cancer Survivors’ Action Group. She also served on the executive of the Caribbean Association for Feminist Research and Action (CAFRA), as a Director of Help and Shelter and as Board Member of the Guyana National Commission on Women. She received a number of awards, including the Golden Arrow of Achievement in Guyana (the fourth highest national award).
Andaiye passed away on 31 May 2019 at the age of 77. The subsequent tributes that flowed in from activists, friends and those inspired by her life spoke eloquently to her amazing legacy and her beautiful humanity.
Here are but a few:
“Andaiye had a profound effect on me...she was so many things, an educator, fighter, she taught me to be self-critical, to think more clearly, she taught me about survival, about incredible courage, about compassion, about going beyond external appearances and treating people as people and not being distracted by status, class, race...anything.” - Peggy Antrobus, Feminist Activist, Author, Scholar, Barbados
“The kind of confident idealism Andaiye expressed, this willingness to confront the world and a stubborn belief that you could actually change it... That politics of hope...How else to honour her life, legacy and memory but to keep doing the work ethically and with ongoing self-critique? And to put women’s caring work at the center of it.” - Tonya Haynes, Barbados
“I can hear her quip at our collective keening. So through the tears I can laugh. Deep bows to you beloved Andaiye, thank you for everything. Love and light for your spirit’s journey. Tell Walter and all the ancestors howdy.” - Carol Narcisse, Jamaica
As an online participant, you can facilitate activities, connect and converse with others, and experience first-hand the creativity, art and celebration of the AWID Forum. Participants connecting online will enjoy a rich and diverse program, from workshops and discussions to healing activities and musical performances. Some activities will focus on connection among online participants, and others will be truly hybrid, focusing on connection and interaction among online participants and those in Bangkok.
Janet Benshoof was a human rights lawyer from the United States and an advocate for women’s equality, sexual and reproductive rights.
She campaigned to broaden access to contraceptives and abortions across the world, and battled anti-abortion rulings and in the American territory of Guam. She was arrested in 1990 for opposing her country’s most restrictive abortion law, but won an injunction at the local court in Guam that blocked the law and eventually won at the Ninth Circuit Court of Appeals, striking down the law for good.
“The women in Guam are in a very tragic situation. I never intend to be quiet about that.” - Janet Benshoof for People Magazine
Janet established landmark legal precedents including the US Food and Drug Administrations’ approval of emergency contraception, as well as the application of international law to ensure the rights of rape victims in the Iraqi High Tribunal’s prosecution of Saddam-era war crimes.
Janet was President and founder of the Global Justice Center, as well as founder of the Center for Reproductive Rights, the world’s first international human rights organization focused on reproductive choice and equality. She served 15 years as Director of the American Civil Liberties Union’s Reproductive Rights Project, where she spearheaded litigation shaping US constitutional law on gender equality, free speech, and reproductive rights.
“Janet was known for her brilliant legal mind, her sharp sense of humor, and for her courage in the face of injustice.” - Anthony D. Romero
Named one of the “100 Most Influential Lawyers in America” by the National Law Journal, Janet was the recipient of numerous awards and honors.
She was born in May 1947 and passed away in December 2017.
Principles of Engagement
Welcome to Crear | Résister | Transform: a festival for feminist movements!
Principles of Engagement
AWID is committed to creating an online space that invites and challenges us all to operate from a place of courage, curiosity, generosity and shared responsibility.
We invite you to co-create spaces with us that are free of harassment and violence, where everyone is respected in their gender identity and expression, race, ability, class, religion, language, ethnicity, age, occupation, type of education, sexuality, body size, and physical appearance. Spaces where we recognize inequalities in our world and strive to transform them in our own interactions with each other.
We want to create a space where ...
we can all be present
This means that we are able to listen, understand and relate to each other. To feel close, in spite of it all being virtual. For this, we will make interpretation available and open channels (like chat and other tools) for you to react and share. To hear each other better, we invite you to wear headphones during the conversation. If it is possible for you , we suggest that you close your email and any other likely source of distraction while you are in the conversation.
all forms of knowledge are valued
Let us celebrate the multiple ways in which knowledge shows up in our lives. We invite you to approach the conversation with curiosity and openness to learn from others, allowing ourselves to unlearn and relearn through the exchange, as a way to start collectively building knowledge.
all of us feel welcome
We are committed to holistically approaching accessibility by being mindful of different physical, language, mental and safety needs. We want a space that is welcoming of folks from various backgrounds, beliefs, abilities and experiences. We will be proactive but we also ask that you communicate your needs with us, and we will do our best within our capacity to address these needs.
all of us feel safe and respected:
We all commit individually and collectively to respect each other’s privacy and to seek people’s consent before sharing any images or content generated during the conversation that involves them.
Creating a safer, respectful and enjoyable environment for the conversations, is everybody's responsibility.
Reporting
If you notice that someone is behaving in a discriminatory or offensive manner, please contact the reference person who will be indicated at the beginning of the session.
Any participants that express oppressive language or images, will be removed from the call and will not be readmitted. We will not engage with them in any way.
Fadila M. was a Soulaliyate tribal activist from Azrou, the Ifrane region of Morocco. She fought against a specific form of land discrimination directed against tribal women.
As part of the Soulaliyate Women’s Land-Use Rights Movement, she worked towards overhauling the framework legislation relating to the management of community property through the 2019 adoption of three projects of laws guaranteeing the equality of women and men.
According to the customary laws in force, women had no right to benefit from the land, especially those who were single, widowed or divorced. The rights to collective land in Morocco were transmitted traditionally between male members of a family of over 16 years of age. Since 2007, Fadila M. had been part of the women’s movement, the first grassroots nationwide mobilization for land rights. Some of the achievements included that in 2012 for the first time Soulaliyate women were able to register on the lists of beneficiaries and to benefit from compensation relating to land cession. The movement also managed to get the 1919 dahir (Moroccan King's decree) amended to guarantee women the right to equality.
Fadila M. died on 27 September 2018. The circumstances of her death are unclear. She was part of a protest march connected to the issue of collective land and while authorities reported her death as being accidental, and her having a cardiac arrest on the way to the hospital, the local section of the Moroccan Association of Human Rights (AMDH) pointed out that Fadila was suffocated by a member of the police force using a Moroccan flag. Her family requested investigation but the results of the autopsy were not known.
Please note: As there was no photograph/image of Fadila M. available to us, the artwork (instead of a portrait) aims to represent what she fought and worked for; land and rights to live and have access to that land and what grows on it.
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The Crear, Résister, Transform Story by Coumba Toure
A magical experience of feminist story telling led by pan-African feminist Coumba Toure, performing in the age old tradition of West African griots.
And we gathered again
We gathered our stories our strength
our songs
our tears
our rage
our dreams
our success
our failures
And we pull them all together
In one big bowl to share
for a moon of thoughts
And we stay in touch
We shake each others minds
we caress each other souls
While our hands still are tied
And our kisses and hugs are banned
Yet we grow stronger by the hour
Weaving together our voices
Crossing the sound barriers
as we speak in tongues
We are getting louder and louder
We know about differences from others
and from each other so we are stitching our beauties into patchwork or thoughts
From our deepest learnings from our powers
Sometimes we are surrounded by terror
by confusions by dishonesty
But we wash out in the Ocean of love
We are weavers of dreams
To clothes or new world
Thread after thread
As small as we are
Like little ants building our movement
Llike little drops building our rivers
We take steps forward and steps backward
Dancing our way back to sanity
Sustain to the rhythm of our hearts keep
Beating please don't not stop
And we are here transmitter of forgotten generosity
drop after drop growing like the ocean
growing like the river flowing from our souls .
showing our strength to be the water
that will clean this world
and we are gathering again can you feel us
I would lie if I say I said I am
Ok not to see you I do miss my people
I miss your touch and
You unfiltered and unrecorded voices
I miss our whispers and our screams
Our cries of the aborted revolution
We only want to give birth to new worlds
So fight to erase the borders between us
And we gathered again
We gathered our stories our strength
our songs
our tears
our rage
our dreams
our success
our failures
And we pull them all together In one big bowl to share
For a moon of thoughts
And we stay in touch
We shake each others minds
we caress each other souls
While our hands still are tied
And our kisses and hugs are banned
Yet we grow stronger by the hour
Weaving together our voices
Crossing the sound barriers
as we speak in tongues
We are getting louder and louder
We know about differences from others
and from each other so we are stitching our beauties into patchwork or thoughts
From our deepest learnings from our powers Sometimes we are surrounded by terror by Confusions by dishonesty
But we watch out in the Ocean of love
We are weavers of dreams
To clothes or new world
Thread after thread
As small as we are like little ants building our movements
like little drops building our rivers We take steps forward and steps backward
dancing our way back to sanity
Sustain to the rhythm of our hearts
keep beating please don't not stop
And we are here transmitter of forgotten generosity
Drop after drop growing like the ocean
growing like the river flowing from our souls
showing our strength to be the water
that will clean this world
and we are gathering again can you feel us
I would lie if I I said I am Ok
not to see you
I do miss my people
I miss your touch and
You unfiltered and unrecorded voices
I miss our whispers and our screams
Our cries over the aborted revolutions
We only want to give birth to new worlds
So fight to erase the borders between us
Please don’’t stop
“I do not know a lot about spirituality or what happens when we die, but my crip queer Korean life makes me believe that our earthly bodyminds is but a fraction, and not considering our ancestors is electing only to see a glimpse of who we are.” - Stacey Park Milbern
Stacey Park Milbern was a self-identifying queer disabled woman of colour and a trailblazer. A long-standing and respected organizer and leader in the disability rights and justice movement, she also advocated for the rights of many different communities, not just her own. Stacey’s activism had mighty roots in her experience at the intersections of gender, disability, sexuality and race.
Stacey, along with some friends, co-created the Disability Justice Culture Club, a group working to support various and especially vulnerable communities, including helping homeless people gain access to resources during the COVID-19 pandemic.
She was also a co-producer of an impact campaign for Netflix’s documentary “Crip Camp”, a board member of the WITH Foundation, and led organizations at local, state and national levels. Stacey wrote beautifully and powerfully:
“My ancestors are people torn apart from loves by war and displacement. It’s because of them I know the power of building home with whatever you have, wherever you are, whoever you are with. My ancestors are queers who lived in the American South. It’s because of them I understand the importance of relationships, place and living life big, even if it is dangerous. All of my ancestors know longing. Longing is often our connecting place...” - Stacey Park Milbern
She was born in Seoul, Korea and grew up in North Carolina, later continuing her journey in the San Francisco Bay Area. Stacey passed away of complications from surgery on her 33rd birthday on 19 May 2020.
“She was, a lot of people would say, a leader. She kind of encompassed all of it. You know, sometimes there's like a lead from the front, lead from the middle, lead from the back. And she was just somehow able to do all of that.” - Andraéa LaVant, disability rights activist
“What a blow to lose Stacey when our communities need her leadership more than ever, and at a time when her strength, insight, and grit were receiving increased recognition outside of disability circles, giving her a greater platform to advance her life’s work...We will not have the gift of learning where her charismatic leadership would have taken us. But let there be no doubt: What Stacey gave us, in a relatively short time, will continue benefiting others for years to come.” - Disability Rights Education and Defense Fund (DREDF)
Forum 2024 - FAQ - Travelling to Bangkok EN
Travelling to Bangkok
بصمة حبّ جماعيّة
تصوير مريم مكيوي
ترجمة فيفيان عقيقي
تُعرَف أيضًا باسم “شبكة تيتا للأبحاث”. دائرة الكتابة: العصبةُ المتآمرة هي مجموعة عابرة للقوميات من الكتّاب الكويريين والنسويين الذين يتشاركون في الكتابة الجماعية والتفكير وصنع العالم. أعضاء المؤامرة هم: أحمد قيس منهزم، أحمد عوض الله، ألينا آخنباخ، باربرا ديندا، سيندي سلامة، دلال الفارس، ديباراتي سركار، فرح جلال عثمان، ج. دانييل لوثر، جان مخلوطة، لينا قليلات، حنا الطاهر، ماريا نجار، مايا بهاردواج، مادوليكا سنكار، ملاك الأكحل، ميريام عمري، نيحاريكا بانديت، نور المزيدي، رؤيا حسن، سارة البنا، سارة تونسي، شيرين شلاح، وازنة زندن، زينب أحمد.
وازنة زندن (wazina.com) أفغانية نشأت في مدينة نيويورك، يركز عملها على جمع ورواية القصص المتعلقة بالذكريات الجماعية وطقوس العبور في الشتات. بصفتها تقدم آداءات روائية غير رسمية ولا تتبع منهجية معينة، تساهم وازنة في تقديم عرض بعنوان الخروج من المختبأ: الأفعال الراديكالية المتعلقة بالحب. يعد هذا العرض آداءًا شخصيًا لسرد قصص تجسد تجربة أن يكون المرء كويريًا ومسلمًا في آن. تقدم وازنة هذا الآداء إلى جانب نظيرتها الإبداعية وأختها الروحية ترنا دلي جيادو. حاليًا، تعمل على “الإيمان: في الحب / الإيمان في الحب” الذي (يعيد) تتبع قصة علاقة والديها ونصوص الحب الموروثة من العائلة.
الحبّ هروب في الجحيم
الحبّ أسيد يذوِّب الحانات
لكن أنت، أنا والغد
نمسك أيدينا ونتعاهد
بأنّ هذا الكفاح سوف يستمرّ
للمنشار حدّان
للبندقية ماسورتان
نحن حبالى الحرّية
نحن مؤامرة
من واجبنا الكفاح من أجل الحرّية
من واجبنا الفوز
يجب أن نحبّ بعضنا وندعم بعضنا
لا يوجد ما نخسره سوى قيودنا
«الحبّ» لأساتا شاكور
«إذا استطعنا أن نرِث صدمةً، فهل يمكننا أن نرث بصمةً مُرتبطة بالحبّ؟»
هذا هو السؤال الذي تطرحه وازنة زوندُن في مذكّراتها «بصمة حبّ». «بصمة حبّ» هو تطواف، تداخل، انحراف يَخلق (أو يعيد خلق)، عند تقاطع المقابلات والمقالات الشخصيّة، قصص عائلاتنا ورؤىً عن الحبّ والشراكة والرومانسية. بتوجيهٍ من وازنة، اجتمعت مؤامرة كتّاب الدائرة، وحاولت إعادة إنتاج هذا المُخطّط الحرفي على شكل كتابة جماعيّة، حيث تُكمِّل قصصنا وهويّاتنا الجنسية والجندرية المُختلفة بعضها البعض، وتتناقض فيما بينها. مع تداخل أصواتنا، نُكمِّل جُمَلَ بعضنا لنخلق محادثة، تذكاراً، وأجزاء من أنفسنا تتحدّث إلى الـ»نحن».
ما هي أصول «بصمة حبّ»؟
أنا من يُسمّى «حادثة سعيدة». هناك الكثير من الروايات عن الأمر – حياة عرضية، إنّما مطلوبة في الوقت نفسه. أظن أنّ هذه هي طريقتي في الحبّ، فأنا لا أقع في الحبّ فقط؛ أنا أخاطر بانزلاق يؤدّي إلى السقوط. ربّما جعلني الأمر شخصاً قدره الحبّ.
قيل لي إنني طفلة غير مرغوب فيها. لذلك كَبِرت لأصبح شخصًا بالغًا غير مرغوب فيه. أصول «بصمة حبّ» تستند إلى كوني شخص غير مرحّب به بالأساس. أنا لستُ ثمرة حبّ أو أي مشاعر سعيدة، بل ثمرة ألَم وعبء. ليس لديّ بصمة حبّ – أقلّه بهذا المعنى.
أعرف أنّ والديّ كانا في حالة حبٍّ في مرحلة ما، لكنّ الصحّة العقلية شيطان، إلى حين يواجه المرء شياطينه، لا يوجد ربح.
لن أربط أبداً «الحبّ» بوالديّ أو عائلتي. كان الحبّ الذي يكبر مليئًا بالعنف والمسؤوليّات التي لم أشترك بها ولم أكن مستعدّة لها. شعرت لوقت طويل أنّ الحياة والحبّ يدوران حول حِملٍ مُرهِق وشاقّ. بينما كان والدايْ «يحبّان بعضهما البعض»، كانت روحٌ سامّة من العنف والغيرة وانعدام الأمن تنمو أيضاً. نشأتُ وأنا أتوق إلى الاستقرار، وهذا ما أنا عليه الآن. أنا مُجازفة، لكن ليس في «مساحة الحبّ».
لا أعرف لماذا اختارت والدتي استضافة طفل (أنا) في داخلها. هي لا تحبّ بهذا الشكل.
قالت لي والدتي إنّه إذا كان عليّ التفكير في «إيجاد» الحبّ، أن لا أنظر إلى زواجها كنموذج. تأتي «بصمة حبّ» بدلاً من تربية كلب على مدار عقدين ماضيين (18 عامًا لأكون دقيقة). والعكس صحيح أيضًا – لقد ربّوني. بتّ أفهم المزيد عن الحبّ وطبقاته العديدة في صحبتهم.
لم أعرف الحبّ من «بصمة». في منزلنا لا نتحدّث عن الحبّ. كان عليّ أن أعلّم نفسي كيف أحبّ. لقد كان عملاً صعباً. ما زلت أفشل، وما زلت أحاول وأفشل كلّ يوم. ربّما الفشل هو بصمة حبّي.
بصمة حبّي هي الرعاية والدفء والفهم الذي أعطيهم للمُحيطين بي، سواء كانوا غرباء أم أصدقاء أم أقارب أم عشيقاً. بصمة حبّي سياسيّة – غير محسوبة وغير مدروسة.
وُلدتُ تحت قصف عنيف. بصمة حبّي هي بصمة سلبية عن تلك الأحداث.
دروس مُستقاة عن الحبّ
أعرف ما هو ليس حبّاً أكثر ممّا أعرف الحبّ.
الحبّ ليس قلقاً ولا ذعراً.
الحبّ لا يطلب الإذن ليعيش أو يتنفّس. إنه الحبّ، ولا يوجد حبّ من دون حرّية.
كلّ ما تفعله هو استخدام قلبك من دون الحبّ. الحبّ هو أن تستخدم عقلك.
أحيانًا أخشى أن تضيع لغة حبّي في الترجمة.
--- هناك طرق عدّة
لرسم أصول
كيف
وكيف لا
تحبّ
الحبّ
ليس حبّاً
الحبّ كافٍ فقط
الحبّ بعيد جدّاً
بعض الحبّ
بعض الخسارة
لتحبّ
لتحبّ الخسارة ---
لا أستطيع تحمّل فكرة الزوجين. لا يمكنني تحمّل فكرة العيش بمفردي أثناء الشيخوخة أيضًا. لقد سئمتُ من القيام بالأعمال المنزلية بمفردي، والانتقال من منزل إلى آخر بمفردي، ودفع الإيجار والفواتير بمفردي... أتخيّل إصابتي بجلطة دماغية وأنا بمفردي، وهذا يخيفني. ليس لديّ خطّة «شراكة». أريد عالمًا يمكنني فيه الزواج من صديق، وشراء منزل مع صديق، وعدم ممارسة الجنس.
أن نحبّ كثيرين لا يفسد الحبّ المُشترك بين شخصين. سواء كان الحبّ رومانسيًا أم لا فهذا ليس مهمّاً حقًا.
عندما أفكّر في علاقاتي الرديئة، أُدرك أنني مُرتبطة بعلاقة تدرّبتُ لأكون فيها. مع كلّ «راديكاليّتي» لم أتخلّص بعد من الأعراف الجندرية القذرة.
حاجتي إلى الاستقرار «ليست جذّرية» بما فيه الكفاية. أريد الخروج من هذه الوصمة. أريد شيئًا لم أحصل عليه من قبل. أريد أن أجعله جم
--- بصمة حبّ – أحبّ شمّ الكتب لمعرفة مكان طباعتها
أحاول التفكير في أصل فهمي وممارستي الحبّ
هل نحتاج إلى أصول، فهو ليس مثل النقاء؟ لا طهارة ولا أصل للحبّ.
لماذا يتبادر الفهم والممارسة إلى الذهن وليس «العاطفة»؟ ---
عندما أتّصل بوالدَيْ، لا أغلق الهاتف بعد قول الوداع، لكي أتمكّن من سماع أصوات المنزل.
ما الذي نحتاجه لكي نقع في/ نشعر بالحبّ في الموت؟
أثناء دفني وفق طقوس المذهب السنّي، أريد أن يجتمع كلّ الرجال والنساء معاً. لا أفهم سبب عدم القدرة على توديع الموتى من جنس مختلف؟ سوف تكون مراسم دفني وفق الطقوس السنّية لأن والدتي قد ترغب بذلك. سوف يكون دفني صديقاً للبيئة. لا حاجة لوضع شاهد فوق قبري. أنا أحبّ كلّ طقوس الدفن. القرآن جيّد، لكنّي أريد موسيقى أيضًا. أحبّ أسمهان جدّاً، وأم كلثوم، وذا ستون روزيز.s.
لديّ قائمة تشغيل من الاثنين إلى الجمعة، وقائمتان مختلفتان لعطلة نهاية الأسبوع: واحدة ليوم السبت والأخرى ليوم الأحد. أودّ ممّن يحبّوني أن يشغّلوا الموسيقى التي كنت أستمع إليها مع الالتزام بقوائم الأيّام – هناك هامش حرّية في اختيار الأغاني طالما يلتزمون بقوائم التشغيل.
أريد أن أكون مُحاطة بمن أحبّني، ولو للحظة. مع الموسيقى والأزهار المقطوفة. لا أريد أن يشعروا بغيابي. أريد أن أموت على وقع ضحكات من أحبّهم.
أريد أن يتذكّروني كشخص يحبّ.
لست بحاجة للشعور بالحبّ في الموت. أريد ممّن حولي أن يشعروا بأنني أحبّبتهم، حتّى بعد موتي. أن تكون محبوبًا في الموت هو أمر مُرتبط بمَن لا يزالون على قيد الحياة. لذلك أفكّّر أكثر في كيفيّة لقائنا معًا كمجتمع حيّ ومحبّ في موت مَن نحبّهم ونعيش معهم. كيف نأخذ ذكرياتهم معنا. كيف نصبح أرشيفاً لحياتهم.
--- في بعض الأحيان يمكنك أن تحبّ الناس في موتهم فقط --
عليّ التفكير في الجسد المُتّصل بمساحة. عائلتي صغيرة جدًا، وعلى الرغم من أننا نأتي من أماكن مختلفة، لكن يبدو كما لو أن كلّ جيل انتقل إلى مكانٍ جديد. ربّما هذا هو سبب عدم ارتباط الموت بمكان خاص: مقبرة. من الشائع في عائلتنا دفن الموتى من دون أسماء أو شواهد قبور، أو ترك الرماد يتحرّر بتطايره مع الريح. أشعر بسلام إذا كان ذكري مُنفصلاً عن المكان. مجرّد التفكير بأن رمادي يُخصّب حياة جديدة، وأنّه يتمّ ذكري في أوقات التسلية والفرح، يعطيني إحساسًا بأنني محبوبة. توفّيت جدّتي في وقت سابق من هذا العام بسبب مضاعفات اللقاح. بعد ساعتين من وفاتها، جلست عائلتي تضحك على نكاتها، وطريقتها المُضحكة في سرد القصص. ضحكنا وشعرنا بالحبّ وكأنّها تجلس معنا مرّة أخرى. هذا ما قد يجعلني أشعر بسلام – تخصيب التراب، وتخصيب الأحاديث، والتذكّر الجماعي.
--- هناك
شارعان أسلكهما
للمشي
للهرب
للّعب
للبقاء
هناك
خمس ساعات تكون أشعة الشمس
حادّة
السماء زرقاء
الأرض خضراء
هناك
زهرة أستطيع
شمّها
لمسها
عصرها
واقتلاعها
هناك
أصدقاء أستطيع
ضمّهم
طعام
أستطيع
ابتلاعه
لغة
تخرج
عبر شفتيّ
ربّما لا يزال هناك
أماكن عدّة
وأشياء
وناس
من بعدي ---
ربّما يكفيني وعد بـ»الاحتفاء بذكري مكانياً» كما لو أنني نبتة يجري الاعتناء بها حتّى تصبح شجرة. لا إسم ولا لوحات تعريفيّة – النبتة/ الشجرة فقط مع عِلمٍ مُسبق بأنّه سوف يتمّ الاعتناء بها. بالنسبة لجسدي، أريد أن أُحرَق من دون أي طقوس، وأن يُرمى رمادي في بحر العرب.
أريد أن يتمّ التعامل مع جسدي بشكل تخريبي كما لو أنّه على قيد الحياة.
لا أريد أن أدفن إلى جانب عائلتي. في هذا الدُرج الصغير إلى جانب كلّ الأشخاص الذين لم يعرفوني أبدًا. محاصرة بالموت كما كنت في الحياة. أريد أن أُحرَق، وأن يتمّ تحرير رمادي أخيراً.
أريد أن يُسمح لي بالمرور، لا الوقوف ما بين بين، لكي يكون ذلك وجوداً، عملية نشطة، تجاوز.
سأطلب منكم:
إطلاق سراحي والسماح لي بالمرور
عدم السماح للحنين بتعكير هذه اللحظة لأنني لن أطلب سوى عودة تعابيركم إلى طبيعتها
لقد اقتنصت اللمحات اللطيفة، وتخلّصت من الطرق الصغيرة والكبيرة التي أحبّبتموني بها سعياً للخلود. أبقيت نفسي على قيد الحياة بهذه الطريقة
تحديد وقت للحزن
تذكّر أنّه لا يوجد فراق في جمال الحبّ؛ إنه لا نهائي ويتجدّد من دون الجسد
أريد أن يتذكّروني من خلال الحبّ الذي تركته. أريد التخلّي عن جسدي وأعضائي لتغذية الحبّ في حياة أو حياوات أخرى.
--- رائحة الياسمين ---
ExploreTransnational Embodiments
This journal edition in partnership with Kohl: a Journal for Body and Gender Research, will explore feminist solutions, proposals and realities for transforming our current world, our bodies and our sexualities.
نصدر النسخة هذه من المجلة بالشراكة مع «كحل: مجلة لأبحاث الجسد والجندر»، وسنستكشف عبرها الحلول والاقتراحات وأنواع الواقع النسوية لتغيير عالمنا الحالي وكذلك أجسادنا وجنسانياتنا.
